For in that sleep of death, what dreams may come.William Shakespeare Hamlet

                                                   

 

This memorial website was created to remember my Dearest Ian John Haslett who was born at Walton-upon-Thames in Surrey ENGLAND on March 13, 1951 and passed away on May 20, 2004. You will live forever in my heart my soulmate.

 

 

 

 

 

My darling Ian, each day is a trial and after all this time I know I should have moved on some but I cannot get past the days when we would share all things. I do talk with you just as I always did and I know at times you are with me I feel you close and I thank you so much darling man for that . I was at your resting place and I was chatting away not noticing other people around and I truly did'nt care because it was as if we had a conversation but I was doing all the talking as usual I felt you close by and I spent some time just sorting the flowers because I did'nt want to leave you and yet I try darn hard not to be there often as I keep being told to move on, ha if only they knew my darling I will never move on and will be happy to be with you all time. I really cannot get five years in my head because I have your things around and your pictures look out at me, I play the tapes you made for me and listen to you chatting away and its as if you are with me, but I know its me fooling myself a lot, but I don't care as long as I can feel you close.

I have many pretty birds in this new garden and I feed them all just as we used to do, old Sammy chases them away when they get too close but he is old now and losing his sight so I let him do what he likes as I want no regrets when he leaves me to join you and little Benny. It seems I live in a very alone world, oh I see people and go shopping etc but its not as ogften as others want, I like to be alone now with my thoughts and memories, I have hidden pain away so I pretend and I know its wrong but I must not let it all come tumbling out so I act very much in control and talk about you as if you are here when with others and they get a bit strange but I just need to keep you close and alive as possible because you should be here.

I love and miss you my darling Ian so much and just wish I could sit and chat with you in front of me and tell you all the ways it was so wrong , but I know I cannot so I just keep you to myself and say I love you E and oh gosh how I miss you when I turn around in the evening and your not here.

Yesterday today and tomorrow I will always love you and never will time change any of my love for you, if anything it grows all the time. so many things I didnt tell you and I hate that. I miss oyu my sweet sweet man forever and until I join you I always will do so. (((HUGS))) and lots of kisses I send, you have my heart and you know it my Ian.

 x x x x x

           

 

 

 

                       

                                  

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Woof Woof.
 WE LOVE YOU DAD 

I Love you my sweet husband Ian x

My Beautiful Husand Ian x x

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

    
   

 

 

 

You killed yourself and didn't think of me.
I can't blame you for that, and yet I do,
For now your pain becomes my legacy.
What agony impelled you not to be?
I loved you-wasn't that enough for you?
You killed yourself and didn't think of me,

Nor saw through my eyes what you made me see, 
nor cared about my life when yours was through.
And now your pain becomes my legacy,
And I must fight to keep my sanity,
For what you did defines what must be true:
You killed yourself and didn't think of me.

I cannot think you did it selfishly;
So great a sacrifice leaves nothing due.
But now your pain becomes my legacy,

And I must sail across that bitter sea
That leaves no trace of joy or residue.
You killed yourself and didn't think of me,
So now your pain becomes my legacy. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

             

Another day for you to wonder, another day for you to mourn
It wasn’t my intention to go before the coming dawn
My pain was deep within my heart and troubled head
It wasn’t my intention to go without words said

My frame of mind seemed normal, or so I heard them say
It wasn’t my intention not to see another day
I did not mean to make you suffer or cause you so much pain
It wasn’t my intention to never see you again

Despair and confusion left my aching mind unsure
It wasn’t my intention to suddenly close life’s door
If only I could give you reasons and brush the tears away
It wasn’t my intention to leave you and not stay

I did not mean for you to grieve, now left alone to cry
It wasn’t my intention to leave you, forever asking why
As the burden of life’s worries slowly ebb from my heart
It wasn’t my intention to tear your soul apart 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

If tears could build a starway

And memories a lane.

I would walk right up to heaven

                                     And bring you back again.
         
     
 

















I LOVE YOU MY DARLING IAN




          
    





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 Ian loved the sea beach and the birds

   

              




     


  




                           


I know you’re gone from this earth
You left me way too soon
But I feel your love every time
I gaze up at the moon.
Sometimes I think I hear
A whisper in the wind
It sounds as if you’ve called my name
As your love to me you send.
Sometimes I do a silly thing
And your laughter fills my ears
I know you’re right here with me
But I can’t see you through my tears.
I felt your hand upon my shoulder
And I quickly turned to see
Visible... you were not
But I know you’re here with me.
In the night you sometime come
To visit in my dreams
My hands go out to touch you
But you’re just out of reach it seems.
For just a flash you appear
Standing close to me
Is it just my imagination
Or is it really you I see.
Even though you’re gone from me
And you watch me from above
I long for you everyday…
And I still feel your love.







 

   
 
     

        
               

 

        

                            

                                        

                                                     

          

    

Ian.s mother was Irish, and it was one
of his nick names between us two. Mad Jack was another, 
and I always Got Valentine and birthday cards from 
these two Gentlemen as well as my darling
Ian. He was just THE top man. I love you darling Irish.
Darling Ian

        

Morning's dew glistens upon the ground
where angels tears fell with no sound
For love and dreams so suddenly ended
eternal day's silence be never mended
Sunset stains the clouded skies of evening
streakes of red where love lies bleeding
Darkness cloaks the reason why
and hides the angels as they cry
VAH
  

         

   
  
                  

          

I am so broken hearted without you my darling, my life will never be
anything now I will miss you forever, I am without my precious darling. 

          


Weeks flow into months, and months into years.
 A path strewn with sadness, and sodden with tears
 For grief is a journey that has to be shared
 Where sorrow and heartache and feelings are bared.
 Where love is a gift that you give to a friend It comforts the weary 
  and helps a broken heart mend.........XxXxX                           
Love you forever and more, miss you so much.      
Val x x x x

        

If you visit this site and have time to spare please add anything you
would like or  light a candle to keep Ian's memory alive.
 Thank you.
     
               
!! GOD BLESS YOU MY DARLING !!    
  
 



                                                                       
       
      
   

  






        

Don't judge me for how I left this world, Remember the love I gave
Alot of grief will follow me for the decision that I made
Changes appear in everyone's life; Some good, some bad
The one I chose for myself made Val very sad 
But in time memories will heal the hurt of hearts
And my presence will be felt by all with an inner peace
Remember me when the sun is bright and laughter fills the air
And a moonlit night and a whisper of wind will tell you I am there
Don't look down on my wife or fill her heart with blame
For my leaving her without good-byes she will never be the same
If I could go back in time I'd say a last good-bye
I'd tell her to "Look to tomorrow; and for me.....do not cry."




As the wind blew I heard your voice I turned around to see your face. 
The warm wind caressed me As I stood silently in place. 
I felt your embrace from the rays of the sun As its warmth came from the sky. 
I closed my eyes, felt your body against mine and my spirit soared high. 
My tears sprinkling down As I watched the falling rain. 
Each teardrop that fell, softly whispered your name. 
In my heart I hold you close It helps made me feel complete. 
You’re in heaven, but your not really gone As you live inside of me. 
If the sun refused to shine And the wind ceased to blow. 
If the rain stopped falling You would still live inside of me
And that’s all my heart needs to know








And if I go, while you’re still here…
Know that I live on,
Vibrating to a different measure
-      behind a thin veil you cannot see through.
You will not see me,So you must have faith.
I wait the time when we can soar together again,
- both aware of each other.
Until then, live your life to its fullest.
And when you need me,
Just whisper my name in your heart,
…I will be there.








This place would have been heaven to my Ian.




Comes the Dawn
After a while you learn the subtle difference
between holding a hand and chaining a soul,
And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning,
and that company doesn’t mean security,
and you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts,
and presents aren't promises.
You begin to accept defeats with your head up
and your eyes open.
With the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child;
And you learn to build all your roads on today
because tomorrow's ground it too uncertain for plans.
And futures have a way of falling in mid-flight.
After a while you learn that even sunshine burns
if you get too much.
So plant your own garden and decorate your own soul,
Instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you can really endure...
That you are really strong.
And you really do have worth.
And you learn and learn....
With every Goodbye you learn.